It’s my deepest desire to be used by the Lord. I love encouraging others who have been hurt, those who have been broken. But I want to be used on a much deeper level than what I am. My spiritual mentor has been telling me for years that God wants to use me more than I want to be used. So, why the wait? What’s up with this Lord? I don’t understand on most days, but today I do understand.
God demands a specific level of intimacy between He and I with no distractions. He demands a completely submitted soul. He demands the highest integrity and character. I receive those opportunities as I am faced with life’s difficulties, trials and tribulations. A crisis will rise up out of the blue and I am tested. If I fail, then God will use another situation to test me again. This will keep happening until I pass the test. Once I pass the test, then I get to move on to the next level.
There will always be another level to strive for. As I am obedient to the Lord and prove my love to Him by living a consecrated, sanctified and holy life, then He will bless me with those deepest desires of being used. I may get tired of waiting, but this journey is mine to walk. No one can do it for me. It’s up to me how quickly I reach the next level. There truly is nothing more important than spending time with Jesus and the more time I spend with Him, the closer I will become to Him.
“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
Susan Bolinger - Bloom Ladies Ministry